May 27

This is a disclaimer
for all naysayers
who misinterpret
my conversion
of my life
into rhyming words
I'm nineteen
and far from perfect
but some of you guys
think dumb and absurdness
about me and the miss
and I'm an addict
I wont deny it's implied
that's how I planned it
the truth is expanded
I'm not lying or false
but boss you try
and rap this
you try crammin'
twenty four hours
into a twenty four bar
Siditious sandwhich
don't be concerned about me
I'm well learned you see
If I burn it's on me
I just urge you to keep reading. =)

May 26

As I chill with my kinfolk
being simple
I see a magical window
and through it is a crystal
Jeff and I exchange looks
then climb through the nook
into a world of dreams
seen in fantasy books
with trees that grin
intelligent alien men
mystical stems
on the way to the gem
as I bite the psilocybe
my eyes grow wide
and I cant describe
why the sky turns white
when to my surprise
I then have to fight
a giant dragon
mad and black as night
but that bitch got smite
by Jeffreys knife
and we took our prize
a shining diamond

May 26

jealousy
is overwhelming me
compelling me
selfishly
babe you make
me complacent
elated
can I be persuasive
if I ask
you take me back
knowing the fact
I hurt you bad
I'm feeling for you
feigning for you
my meaning girl
I'm screaming for you
hearts beating for you
bleeding for you
I need for you
please girl
can I get your attention
so I can get your digits
and after a couple visits
give you a couple kisses

May 25

I knocked my girl up, f***
I'm an idiot
I mean are you serious?
I don't have the experience
how can I pay to feed
all three of us
every pay period
are you delirious?
i'm in fear of this
hoping it's a miscarriage
I'm a lyricist
I can't babysit
I'm second guessing
didn't I use protection
my lifes direction
might be wrecked
I wake up in a cold sweat
and try to catch my breath
"it was just a dream" I says
and try to get some rest
but I can't express
my heartbeat in my chest
cuz what if it was true?
it happens to the best

May 24

Happy birthday bro
you're in Iraq I know
but soon you'll be home
at least for a moment
cant wait to hear
your war stories this year
I'm on my way to sears
to get you some gear
I've been crazy paranoid
that you couldn't avoid
becoming null and void
so paranoid
I'm just glad you're back
and in tact
lets have some laughs
about the past
and perhaps
discuss the fact
youre under contract
and what are your plans?
to get hitched?
to have kids?
to get rich?
to get ripped?
whatever it is
best wishes
guess I'll see ya
next time you visit

May 23

i'm not saying who or why
but today an affiliate of mine
failed to comply with men
wearing black and white
He awoke to find
himself in a stretcher sittin'
as a result of having bitten
a stem with mesculine in it
his trip was quite intense
to the mall is where he went
and punched out someone innocent
what an idiot
Jake and I just laugh
I question the facts
I try to add up the math
wishing I was that bad ass
but Ill just drink this malt
and scratch these here balls
waiting for Ana to call
and talk to me all night
after all I cant sleep
for three days I've achieved
insomniac abilities
today is May twenty three

May 22

Through the potholed streets of America
the green and the trees in the hills of America
through the thrills and chills, the dollar bills
on a Greyhound you feel the real America
hear Washington say "This is still America"
and "They can never kill America"
We'd never make a deal to conceal
a trojan seal with atomic material
I check my ticket and sigh
the bus drivers so high
he forgot to kindly remind
us we're three hours behind
so I try to nod off
but a tire pops off
and the ceilings leaking on us
freaking ridiculous!
America the sweet
America the free
America the great
home of the brave
from west to east
bay to bay
it's where I play and sleep
and I dream and wake

May 21

for a few seconds today
I found the reason I was made
and it's the same reason I was saved
last summer by the bay
and just as quick as it had come
the moment was done
as I went from Dallas sun
to where my journey had begun
butterflies don't describe
the feeling that I hide inside
last night we cried by moonlight
I cried by the sight of her eyes
and never before have I felt so torn
felt so warmed by her presence
but I know for sure why I was born
to form a respect for her essence
she's precious, begging the question
is she the definition of perfection
her loves a pleasant weapon
on touch sends me to heaven
the lesson that she drew for me
like an adolescent in schooling
is soon I'll be moving
to Texas with hers truly
and I don't know what to do
she's so beautiful and cute
and all I have is the truth
that Ana I love you

May 20

I checked Missoula
I checked Spokane
I checked Sacramento
I even checked Bozeman
for some Ray Ban brand
neon tan sunglasses
but wherever I scanned
those were banned
I looked online
and couldn't find
the kind that were tight
in 1989
but here in Dallas
in a fashion palace
there's some balance
for the worn and callused
a fluorescent epiphany
yellow, blue, pink, and green
a barrage of cheap
neon suns for eighteen bucks
and push or shove
I needed them
not to look a scrub
but to look a pimp

May 19

Lenny, Kentucky, and Skippy
the drifting, and hitching
train skipping, change gripping
threesome
Just three free punks
sit eating by our bus
discussing some stuff
about freedom
sloshing their beers
drunken and queer
their chants and cheers
get my attention
me and Ana's appearance
like divine intervention
shift their vision
from hobo superstitions
a pitt and a mutt
sit guarding the front
of these flea-ridden chumps
some bums they was
the reason I bring
up Skippy, Kentucky, and Lenny
is for you to see
how interesting
the people you meet
on a Greyhound can be
they're routinely
extremely interesting

May 18

wake up and smile
it wont kill you
go to church for a while
because your heart is an igloo
go to moms for some pie
and ice cream with root beer too
dude live your life
like tommorow youre doomed
get out and enjoy
the world and the weather
if you've got a Harley
strap on the leathers
if your days are rough, sorry
today will be better
go ahead and party miss Barbie
you don't live forever
if you're sad and alone
call your friends dont be sittin'
trapped in your home
completely indignant
if you wanna just go
then go the distance
i hope you find hope
in the words I've written

May 17

As I shift the gear
to steer towards the rear
in my rearview mirror
I see me hitting a deer
I step out to check
and it's definitely dead
and what happened next?
I got sentenced to heck!
I have to admit
it was punishment
with razor boxes slitting wrists
and 515 degree ovens
you wouldn't understand
cuz you weren't there
but being damned
was a pain in the underwear
being forced to weigh
dough with no scale
and those who complain
are impaled!
hell was in a familiar location
my place of vocation
and such condemnation
has me praying for salvation

May 16

Waking up naked in bed
few accredited thoughts
running through my head
so I just slept...
but it crept the thought
the cause of getting lost
in Spokane falls
cuz I've got the day off
We walked the river park
and mall to start
walked Gonzaga boulevard
and rode in my car
feeling two in a million
celebrating reunion
in this booming union
eating Red Robins what we're doing
Smoochin' my babe
then shopping away
searching all day
for some hot pink shades
we stayed until late
love won over hate
then we made our way home
and closed the page

May 15

"Don't give me back to me
my heart is yours to keep"
the words that I sing
seem to be the theme of the week
"Tell me what to say
as I'm living day by day"
I love you so much babe
I hate days without your face
we can help Jake move
or see Iron Man the movie
drink some fruit smoothies
whatever you choose I'm approving
we can hike with mom and dad
or take a nap in the grass
you can laugh at Richard Mac
as I record Dont Give Me Back
We finish up the record
on a historical note
cuz as the story goes
I wrote this song seven years ago
for the misses
who's sittin' and grinning
as she listens
to my admittance

May 14

The smell of spring lingers
and we gather in mass
Jakes season of freedom
has at last passed
I sneak a seat in the back
but even Jake's dad
commands me and Ana
to come to the front stands
we clap as the two
say "I do" and then smooch
"Go get a room"
comes from the center pew
afterwards we congregate
to celebrate the consumation
no hating in this fornication based
delegation of Jakes
I'm grateful for the chance
to see Ashley and Jake
with wedding bands on their hands
it cant be a mistake
the next thing they ask
looking straight in my face
when can they appreciate
Ana and I's wedding day

May 13

Four O'clock, incessant patters
from the rain batter
the drains main vein. Doesn't matter
I'm on my way to start another chapter
pastor I pray
the Greyhound makes it okay
'cause there I wait at five forty eight
Just for a taste of her face
she'll only stay for four days
but anyways as I start
to worry my heart wondering
wherefore she art? the bus car
turns hard and parks, sparks
up my heart I stare and watch
and I thought I saw
her soft and flawless shot
It's almost Eight O'clock
and as our eyes meet
for the first time it seems
sweetie finds me and reminds me
why I hurt when she tried to leave
rewind me, and listen
to my intentions of getting with
my delicious, promiscuous
misses that I've been missing

May 9

I wont say who or why
but I cant deny the right
to exercise my rhymes
and write this days surprise
the day was ho hum at best
in Little Caesars dress
business was taking a rest
and I'd never suspect
an employee to dissapear
for what seems near a year
I'm like "Where did he go?"
Kyles like "He went to smoke"
so I scan the scene
confused at the least
finally it comes to me
the location of this employee
headed to the box shed
thinking "He's dead"
but I never would have guessed
what came next
get this kid
there quick wrists sits
clenched fists
and pants unzipped

May 12

I had a dream
I was between worlds
in between the sheets
of two different girls
one was clean
with pearls and curls
the other smoked green
and hunted nuts like squirrels
class attracts me
not over flashy chicks
so I contact the bad lass
and give her the situation
trapped she asks
to get the stick
I resist and she trips
says "kick rocks and quick"
down the dimly lit stairwell
my skin starting to peel
I almost tripped and fell
thinking she just wanted the eel
this is a living hell
and what if it's real
I pinch myself and squeal
I can feel

May 11

Hey mom I wanted to say
thanks for being great
it takes patience and faith
to raise a family of eight
I'm still amazed by your grace
youd take me when I misbehaved
and explain why it's not okay
I hated being spanked but...
you knew in time I'd learn
you weren't trying to hurt
we were your prime concern
and you were kinda perfect
the way you'd iron my shirt
and get us on time to church
you were kind with your words
when I was insecure
I'm sorry and it's true
I hardly ever proved
or payed my dues for the soup
or the dollar when I'd lose a tooth
through Barbies and GI Dudes
having parties in our rooms
it might not sound cool
but mom I love you

May 10

She'll be coming round the mountain
the sound resounding in my ear
she'll be coming round to cloud
my doubts and wipe away my tears
my babies coming back
my lady dressed in black
no maybe, it's a fact
and she's stacked
a second chance for romance
cancel all our plans
cancel that last dance
cuz Ana is coming back
emotions overwhelming me
compelling me selfishly
in my helpless dwelling see
no evil, but what's that I'm smelling?
my hearts covered in frost
I've been wandering and lost
to be found I'd pay the cost
she's Supreme like Diana Ross
the worry lingers
so I cross my fingers
next time I see her
I'll be hearing Jake's wedding singer

May 8

I wasted space in the studio
sang some gayness like Coolio
I'm just playing foolio
I like Coolio on occasion
but anyways be patient
while I explain my situation
as of late my main mang
Joe K has been staying vacant
and tonight he arrived
much to my delight
and in honor of his sight
I took a bite of lemon pie
alright I'm being silly
really, we were just chilling
filling in eachother
as to our latest dealings
"My dads been building bridges
and I'm guiding ski trips"
I half pretended to listen
but my attention drifted
to the misses I've been missin'
I've been spending all my wishes
attempting to get her to visit
so I could give her kisses
in suspense of her intentions
I'm convinced she's intermittent
but she insists she's different
she insists she's different

May 7

My eye is twitching
dramatically
emphatically rhythmatically
cuz of loss of peace
loss of sleep
loss of cheese
loss of me
work is kicking
my back
my crack
my ass
Ana's coming back
momentarily
temporarily
and what's scaring me
is her motives
promoting
devotion
and closeness
every wrong
every right
I love you like
my butterfly

May 6

I just wanna escape
to lost trails and hidden caves
all in a daze with a crazed
look about my face
like Lenny kravitz, wanna get away
to another state, another day
another decade, wait...
that's why I hate 2008
the start of the year
has me in fear of queer occasions
and all of my peers
appear to have similar situations
I don't want confrontation
or me and Ana seperating
presidential race and debating
over next years delegation
still running, still running
from the judgement of justice
trying to make something from nothing
no frontin' or fussing or cussing
the smell of love and hummace
is buggin' my stomach
close enough to touch it
but I know it's just me lusting

May 5

All I do is skate it up
shake it up with a 180 jump
no girls want to date or love
this scrub cuz I'm not classic cut
second hand stand attire
requires a finer admirer
with ass in the pants and bags
stacked fat like my supplier
all I do is skate all day
no time to play I just skate
buying energy dranks for the taste
caffeines worthless anyways
kickflip to heelflip
shuvit to pivot to tre flip
lets surf this hill quick
nollie to primo to rail flip
stop right here, take a break
blaze one to keep awake
feeling baked by the sun rays
time to get tanked at Jeffs place
away from the dictates who enslave
us all between 5 and 8
it takes one who skates to appreciate
what a day I had this May

May 4

Slept in til noon
in my room of a tomb
it was a good day, I knew
by the bright sunny view
Dank Muffins I blew
from apartment four o' two
strapped on my shoes
for a cruise of the zoo
5-0 flashin' the lights
I sighed thinking I might
be spending the night
for a busted tail light
but to my surprise
He didn't write any fines
the only tickets I find
were free, to a No FX show that night
Drunk and dumb
we punch the sun
mosh everyone
have some fun
this girl she comes
with a rockin' body
with her buns she discusses
having a private party

May 3

My expression is cold
in the ships main hold
our shields are low
with enemies close at toe
another heavy blow
makes us shake and roll
Michael falls below
bellowing "Geronimo!"
the screens twitching and glitching
an incoming transmission
there in my vision
is evil's definition
commander Doug and his fleet
baring dog-like teeth
he opens his mouth to speak
words of defeat
at the end of his soliloqy
he says, "Rest in peace"
yet I'm at ease
cuz of what's up my sleeve
outnumbered extremely
my crew members squeaming
dont change your TV screen please
to see my victory

May 2

I stand in an alleyway
the Cali-way and wait
check the time on my watch display
it's four o' eight
I pace and I pace
when from out of no place
a teleport ray disintegrates
and takes me into outer space
four thirteen and it seems
that my team is in need
of a dude that can lead
this crew on S.S. Little C
I began my routine
of checking the readings
'til everythings proceeding
seemingly decently
next thing I know
the ship spins out of control
"Shields are low!!!"
Michael explodes
"Steady crew steady
Dan, check where they're heading"
"Sir, their artilleries heavy
they want the Hot n' Ready"

May 1

the sun shines bright
like vitamin light
cant mask my delight
to be trapped inside
watching water fights
and hot girls on bikes
cant mask my delight
to slice another pie
Iron Man comes out tonight
it sold out at five
can't mask my delight
to see it some other time
I smoke a Black and Mild
flavored wine the taste is fine
I can't mask my delight
for that tobacco high
the weather is ripe
for sipping Sprite with ice
can't mask my delight
when Jake says I smell like lice
but this is just another rhyme
in my hyphy life
I can't mask my delight
to write.

April 30

I feel paranoid
I'll never fill this void
My will a steel alloy
I avoid your voice
I wander with no direction
through the shampoo section
pretending to be interested
at newly perfected dandruff protection
holding clothes
with dope logo's
a twenty folds
I suppose I'll go
out the door of the store
no more poor than before
but somethings still
eating at my core like a worm
even the sunny shores
of California
or Patagonia
wont leg me ignore
all this remorse
riding me like a horse...
the girl I fell for
seven years before

April 29

Why can't we be friends
sends from the other end
and my only defense is
"Can you say that again?"
I broke up with her
now hers broke up with me
I agree sweetie completely
we shouldn't speak for a week
or maybe even three
then we can see
about patching up things
or seeing other human beings
Meanwhile I'll be rockin'
on my wah-wah talkin'
Electro-Harmonix box
that's show-show-stoppin'
"It's got fuzz and color
and reverb and some others"
My mother discovers
over lunch no cover
my brothers still in Iraq
my sisters still actin' whack
my dad's career track
has him headed back to D.C.
the topics are unseemly
over the creamy pudding I'm eating
mom's upset, heavily breathing
maybe someday this will all be easy

April 28

Where is Sid Bostwick?
Where did he go?
High or low,
no one knows
no cell phone
and no photo's
even his most close
friends are out in the cold
They looked at Wal-Mart
and Radio Shack
K-mart and Hal Mark
and then they checked back
as a matter of fact
they checked every crack
to contract a rap
alas, no Sid Bostwick
What did he do?
Something bad they assume
Why else would he've choosed
to be losed?
but it takes no sleuth
to prove the truth...
there Sid Bostwick snoozed
alone in his room